out of the blue

I don't want to think today, so I'll just do whatever I have to, without thinking of future consecuencies. Therefore...
I`ll tell you how much I love you, and how much I need you with me.
I'll tell my father that he could have been a much better dad.
I'll tell my friends that I'm sorry for all the times I didn't go out with them.
I'll tell my shrink that this isn't working.
I'll tell my teacher that she is a mediocre professional and an awful human being.
I'll tell my dear uncle that I love him, but I'm up to hear of listening to his uninteresting stories.
I'll tell my eldest brother that he's a horrible father.
I'll tell my mom of my constant nightmares.
I'll tell my little brother that he's killing my mom with he's attitude.
I'll tell the truth and nothing but the truth.
I'll tell her that I know her secret.
I'll tell myself that I'm sorry.
I'll say NO.
I have to do this, and it has to be today. Today is my last chance of taking all this out of my chest, out of my life.