dearest Mom

I know I have already written about you, but the love I feel for you is so, that I would need three lives to express it entirely.
A new year is coming to its end, and I have been blessed to have you with me again. We have gone through some family issues that have had a negative effect in all the family, but not in you. I mean, I know it touches you too, but you have always been Mom, and that seems to be enough to give you the strenght you need to go on.
We have lost many in the ride, but I still have you. I know, I realize how selfish I am, but I just don't care. I need you with me, now and always. I simply don't work without you.
God is wise, for He knows well that the day I lose you, my life will be meaningless. There will be a huge hole in my soul impossible to cover. The day you are gone, something in me will no longer exist as well. I will stop believing in everything, and I will stay still, waiting for my own time to come.
Please, mom, don't ever leave me. Don't ever walk away without me. I'm useless without you, and your light.
Wherever you go, I'll go. Whatever you need, I'll get it from you, but please, please mom, don't ever leave me. What will I do? Who will I be? My whole identity depends on yours, for I'm just an extention of you.
Please mom, don't ever leave me.