I no longer love you. Loving you has been my most stupid mistake ever. Loving you has been a risky business since day one. And in spite of the multiple warnings, I went on, hurting myself, till I bled.
I despise you. I have no respect for you, and there is a mountain of remorse inside me. Feels like a burden incorporated to my life for an eternity, and all thanks to you. If you didn't love me, why didn't you just say so? I would have understood, you know I would. You know me! I would do anything for you, even giving up for your love. But that wasn't good enough for you. You really wanted me to suffer, and you did.
Are you happy now? Now that you are 'free', you can start living again. But what about me? Don't you care about me even a tiny little bit? I'm suffering here, and you know this well 'cause you see me. I might wear different masks in front of people, but you got to know me, 'cause I allowed you to do so. Ands this is my reward. This is what I get for loving unconditionally some selfish jerk that doesn't care a shit about others.
I can't believe what I have done. I've been so blind! Just tell me why. That's all I ask from you. Tell me why you hated me when I loved you the most. Explain to me what was your plan. What, to make fall in love with you and then, once you done, throw me away like garbage? If taht was your idea, you succeeded.
I have to take you out of my mind. I have to live my own life, and you are no longer in it.
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