every time we come back from holidays is that question: "did you enjoy your holidays?". and always the same honest and direct answer: " at least I´ve survived!"
since I can remember, holidays have always been a problem to me I suppose it has to do with all tha extra (too much?) free time that I have, and which I haven´t learnt to deal with.
however, these last holidays have been completely different. I was able to organize my life in a productive way. therefore, I could go on with thew daily house chores (that will never, ever end, by the way), my teaching practice (an amazing experience), and I had time to think.
the good news is that I didn´t think in the same destructive way that I always do: this time I made a supreme and worthtaking effort and, to my delight, I found out that not everything has to be dark and gloomy. but don´t get me wrong, I do like to be dark and gloomy! it´s just that it was nice to realize that if I want to change I can do it .
during these weeks I saw myself bearing in mindthat this could be the appropiate time to do it. a perfect opportunity to discover, evaluate and add new pieces of me.
i´m not gonna say that I´m happy, but at least I´m in peace with myself, and such a sensation cannot be wrong!
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My dear Barbarita:I feel relief that you`ve been feeling good with yourself and you`ve been learning to manage with those weakness(let`s say) that appear from time to time but I`m pretty sure that some day you`ll overcome them,no matter what. I just want you to know that you know you can count on me or the other girls to support you...
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