Happiness? 1/2 kilo, please.

Remember I told you about my experience during this last holidays? Well, one of the things I discovered is that I CANNOT PRETEND TO BE HAPPY ALL THE TIME.
How did I grt to this amazing and breathtaking conclusion? Not by myself, as you imagine. I had the chance to read some of Jorge Bucay´s ideas (I told you about him before, remember?). Well, he wrote some tales that had a punctual objective: to make the reader place those stories in their mind and think. And that´s exactly what I did.
I was in the beginnings of my tormentuos teenagehood, when I was invaded for the first time by a feeling of emptiness. I´m sure that it had come before, but now I was conscious of it. I assumed that it would go away eventually, but it didn´t, and I ended up inmersedin the eternal search of happiness.
I wanted to feel happy so much, that it quickly became an obsession. however, I didn´t know (or remember) wht happiness was or felt like. I was only sure of one thing: happiness was represented by all the things that I´m lack of. What a positive thought, ha?
Fortunatelly, I had plenty of time to think and I could clearly see that life, in general terms, is full of good and bad moments, days, phases that will dissapear, and which will be replaced by beter or worse ones. I looked over my shoulder and I see just how pathetic I´ve been, always complaining about my life, always with a hideous "but" at the tip of my tongue...
Luckily, now I´m applying a new and constructive way to see and accept things. Before this I couldn´t appreciate all what I have: a beautiful, big, crazy family; amazing friends who accept me for who I am; the presence of my mom (key element of my existance), and even more.
Ifinally understood that happiness is one of the most subjective things on earth, and that not feeling it all the time doesn´t turn me into a lower human being.
Iwrote this for a number of reasons: I want to share this discovery (that I consider to be very important) that I´ve experienced with the ones who know me and care about me. Part of this transformation is due to my lovely friends and classmates (thank you, guys!).
but I also wrote it because I´m sure that it will come a day, sooner or later, when all this espectacular sensation of selfconfidence will vanish for a while, just because, and new doubts will arise. I just want to be prepare enough to face it and to know that THAT, WILL ALSO GO AWAY.