miss you

It was just a moment. A fraction of second in which my heart decided to let you go. I could have said something: I should have stopped you and instead, I remained there, watching, aching, sobbing.And it`s only now that I realize that a part of me has gone with you. Now I can understand how much I love you. Now I regret all those times in which I used to think: there`s time to love you. How stupid I was in letting you go! If I could go back in time, I would hold you so tight, you would never ever ever think about leaving. I miss you terribly. I miss your simple laugh, your innocent eyes and your voice; oh!, that voice that meant the world to me and which was capable of transporting me to a world with no pain and no fear at all. I would give anything to have you back, but at the same time I know that that`s the selfish me. The usual me that gets so nasty trying to get everything. Like I said, deeply in my heart I knew that it was the right thing todo. I guess I didn`t count on how hard the process of letting you go would be. I can feel the pain so real, so frightening, so big. I miss you terribly, sweetheart.