Monday, 4 June 2007

Camile:

The black car approached slowly to the main entrance. The engine stopped and the night captured that last sound to make it dissapear quickly. Camile got off and started to walk. Her steps were short and heavy. After a while she got to the place. In front of her, just a graveyard and a gravestone with the name of a man: Neil Johnson, it said; nothing else.
The young woman, who had stayed calm, suddenly lost control. Her fists were very closed and tears started to go down her palid face. Finally, she began to speak: “ He always lied. From the very first moment he saw me, he decided to make af lyeing a whole art. From the simple, everyday things to the most complex ones he never said the truth. He was delighted by seeing my misery, and yet I loved him! God, how could I´ve been so blind to believe in him?
I knew you were hurting me. I knew I was in constant suffering, but I let and helped you destroy me. You took everything I had and turned it into pieces just to save yourself. You did that disgusnting thing only to prove me that you were tougher, didn´t you? Miserable pig, you took my youth and my dreams. I don´t feel anything now. My existance is sosteined only because of my mechanical breathing and a damm heart that keeps on beating. Why did you hurt me that way? I loved you, I lived through you for years and now that you are finally gone, I just don´t know how to do it without you. All these years I only begged for you to dissapear, but I guess I never realized that my life was embraced by yours.
Anyway it´s all over now. I´ve come here to tell you that I´ll go on. I don´t know how, but I´ll find the strength to live again. I refuse to live in the past any longer. So please, please, let me alone. Go off my dreams, go off my nightmares. I gave you everything I had and more. So please, if you ever felt something for me, let me go. I need to start over on my own. I don´t need you anymore, so goodbye. This is the last time I visit you and I hope you do the same. Bye”.
Camile turned around, whiped her tears and left. She walked slowly again, but now with a different feeling. She had to live again. She had to be back in life.

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