hi everyone!I`m back, finally. Now that I`ve got Internet at home, I`ll be INVINCIBLE... just kidding! The truth is that I hadn`t seen my blog since last year and reading what I`ve written so far is quite depressing, to say the least. Last year I was so down that I simply gave up to everything that mattered to me: getting my degree, my teaching practice, doing something for myself, none of that seemed important any longer. I even pushed away my family and my friends, the people that I love the most and who care about me, well, I felt like they were sofocating me, but that wasn`t real. Actually, they were trying to help me and I just couldn`t see that. The pain was so real that all I was focused on was on avoiding people and everyday situations. I was too blind and selfish to notice that help was being delivered constantly.
Instead, I chose to run away, `cause that was the easiest thing to do at the moment. This year I decided to look for professional help, but then I quit (it wouldn`t be me, if not!) It took me just one session to notice that it would be too painful, and I thought that it wasn`t worthtrying. Don`t tell: I screwed it up, didn`t I?
Right now I`m back at school, trying to finish what I`ve started and what meant so much effort. I guess it`s just a matter of time `till I get that "you are such a loser" thing, but I have to go on. Frankly? I don`t feel like. Anyway, if I don`t do it for myself, then I should at least do it for all the people that have always encouraged me. And for those great friends (Kritox, Mariam , Rachel-woman and Monique, among others, I`M SO SORRY, GUYS! Really, I mean it. I blew it up, I know. But my other half is decided to kill me. Don`t worry, though.I`ll go on, I know that.
